I can put on my make up and pretend, but I think I’m falling apart again. I’m so confused and I feel like I have lost my last sense of reality.
I’m too scared to ask my friends to help me, because I need the support, I have been slowly dying for almost two years now and I haven’t been able to make a sound.
Some days I just wish I could scream until I could not breath anymore, but there is this voice telling me that if I speak to my friends they will all leave me.
I have been almost overcome with the urge to stab myself in the stomach, it just feels like a good idea.